I.
Satin-cocked,
the image maven
left-learn readies
quilted body in
a rocking chair house,
whose doorframe smirks -
this rich universe looks
for the right word to end with
spins the circlet
arthritic cursive
not for nothing -
would you know?
I never kept quiet
in chipped-cup circles
velvet evenings spent
mispronouncing names,
a swift turn
china plates,
your water glass
the door:
you trip without a map
in the same bookish spot;
I talk back
in my underwear
on this doorstep I
struggle over, under, threw
the gnarled notebook,
a beautiful girl
even when Out
in ink-rich icing.
Names words clamor
- jealousy lousy louse -
never realize
Difficult Worlds, difficult
the memory,
you on my side
like mathematics huddled
await the grate
of conclusion's short bridge;
use an amethyst
through speechless teeth,
finger-hawk eyes,
understand and answer
knock my notebook
trust a revolution
doom with persistence,
the wood board whitened
with inkflow skin
milk white fodder
my hand's attention
a hot, dusty lamp.
II.
A razor guards borders:
for you a few
itchy weeks
and a warm winter;
there's time before
exile, before skin lines
shine in your eyes:
my vista is verdant
spring growing in.
The root twists
inches before sprouting
.
You fester, razor
and shave cream in hand
Am I rich to risk?
Turning not pine, not dollar,
porcupine
waiting to explode
nestled shards
tongue danger
needle edges
when I don't shave first,
dry aversions last.
Now you search
to smooth
to soften
for lips that cross
unquestioned
eager as rats.
III.
Left-hand Hebrew
backwards me
over the shoulder
line-induced seduction:
crowbar-and-peg
ship-track,
starboard women
diminish:
they resemble the right profile.
In this unknown
pierogi is one
Oplatek two,
to eight
each same season,
I by belly's sea,
- Catholic Jew -
or dead
lost wanderer
light-lack kin,
lines on a map;
Polish, Catholic. Fleeing:
lineage blurted
is butchered,
short-vowel erased.
IV.
The chipped-wall secret:
gripping the pen
in black joy
depression zooms
to the wrist
too cold for crickets,
you scratch
the Wedgwood warming
tough love
the frantic paper
premeditated
launched by
poems I never had
courage close-up
a low pain threshold
the slow ooze
of sticky words
that stay, not
the pinprick, quick
into the cracks -
Take up a tool,
find yourself later:
it's not names;
winds blow
a rising flame
against streamlined souls
like me: love women;
break wills with pills.
Between dreams
we had what?
Stack-lookers
with money -
I imagined you
loud and splashed into
blowdart warm.
The problem is
planned impulsions
are too easy
women fade fast
the fingertips between you;
by chance,
becoming dusty,
I free the white angel,
muted muffles now.